Today I decided to do an add-on daily draw to boost the message of the Six of Bells and Seven of Ink. The Six of Bells and Seven of Ink had already let me know that it would be a good idea to communicate my current course of action and to shine with pride as I follow my ambition. In order to connect with this message even more deeply, I engaged the latest newcomer on my tarot and oracle shelves, the Wild Unknown Alchemy deck. It said “Neptunus”, which an astrologer immediately translates into “water”, “dissolution”, “faith”. The funny thing about these cards in a row is that all of them contain rays; how fitting for the Rise’n’Shine Tarot Spread. To me the cards seem to say that I can send my prayers and intentions to the godly realms, letting them answer and guide me. I have nothing to defend in the solid world of the day-to-day, the higher wisdom of the divine will speak on my behalf. Keep going and trust in the alchemy of faith!
Visual pop-up magick, exactly! Maybe it is all Uranus squaring out and about in the sky or maybe it is what was meant to be regardless. When I did the Rise’n’Shine Tarot Spread at the beginning of Leo season, I found the 8 of Tomes (Pentacles) and the Artist in one position. These cards clearly had a very high opinion of the best version of myself in the role of the astrologer; and they encouraged me to stack up on astrology books and get the creative juices flowing. I am currently in the process of creating a cheat sheet booklet for traditional astrology. The booklet will accompany some of my Patreon offers. It is a pleasure to be designing this piece of teaching material, which equally excites me as a piece of visual pop-up magick. There is no doubt that I was taken by surprise as the process started flowing from my fingers, and I know deep inside that Canva Pro was one of the most rewarding and fun business investments this year!!
Entertaining a somewhat regular tarot practice is actually quite nice. Today is the dark moon in Leo and who knows what will happen when Uranus, Mars, and the north node square the Sun, Moon, and Mercury. I took a short walk to the supermarket in order to restock on gluten-free flour, yeast, and some green leafs. Then I mainly hung out with myself and looked forward to a soothing dark moon relaxation and reflection. I can get overwhelmed with messages when I do too many readings on top of each other. That is why I decided to repurpose four cards from the Rise’n’Shine Tarot Spread to fill position one and two of Emily’s New Moon in Leo spread that I picked as a companion for the self-care session. While soaking my feet in a blend of herb-salt-soda bathwater, I pondered on the draw. The cards all point me into the direction of surrendering, no more hurried decision taking, no more struggling with my own thoughts. I appreciate this moment of rest and stillness. Let’s hope that the world events will fall in line with the same message.
Sometimes I do things quick and dirty because I feel trapped in a tight-knit family dress and believe that jumping ahead of myself is the best way forward. Many parents, or otherwise busy people, easily get into the habit of rushing their tasks, fearing not being able to finish and manifest what they really dream of. I am in Spain now and my husband and son are at the beach for two weeks, leaving me completely alone in our new flat. It should be the perfect time to get things done, and I even do get things done, and everything looks FINE. But what the heck is going on inside of me? I find myself looking up business advice, counselling sessions, tarot readers, well, simply the full range of self-improvement tools for spiritual business owners. But as I scroll and scroll and scroll, I realise that I am caught up in a very unhelpful pattern.
I have already attended numerous courses in astrology and energy healing. I have polished my website, included a scheduling tool with available times, finalised a Patreon page, and even started a NEW YouTube channel (click here if curious) where I can embody the professional astrologer, starting on a clean slate, now that I have shed the skin of my so called “old life”. I realise that all of my weird behaviour is not rooted in a lack of preparation, but that it is a slice of impostor in disguise. The Numinous Spirit Press gave me really nice cards in the Rise’n’Shine Tarot Spread. In the position of what I need to clarify about my ambition to rise and shine, I got XIII Death and the Child. It tells me that I am no longer stuck, I have made the changes I wanted to make, and I have been brave and skilful. It is just about giving myself some time combusting old energy webs and giving my astrology baby space to breathe!
Usually the headlines for my blogposts evolve as I type. For this entry I looked at the tarot card in focus and thought of the heaven above with all its dots and knew exactly what the reflection would be about. Each dot in the sky itself does not make a lot of sense, but as we learn to look at the bigger picture everything gets so much clearer. My wish to create my own income as an astrologer is not meaningful in isolation, but it makes a lot of sense in the context of my path up until now. I have been seeking a lifestyle that allows for daily spiritual dedication, I have been looking for a way to make my sensitivity useful to other people without having to sacrifice my power, and I have been and will be an eternal student, which invites me to being self-employed and constantly enhancing my skill set. It might be trendy to be an astrologer, but it is part of the night sky that I occupy and share with everybody else. The Star is my chosen significator card for this month, and I am happy to let it connect the dots in my work-life jigsaw puzzle.
This past month I have spent working with the tarot cards that came up in the Reclaim Tarot Spread. The Queen of Wands was the last card in the spread that I recently connected into my daily life. In order to continue my slow paced and embodied tarot practice, I now designed a new tarot spread for Leo season; the Rise’n’Shine Tarot Spread. This spread is all about creating awareness around my ambition and finding ways to live in accordance with it each and every day. I actively chose the Star card from the Trionfi della Luna Paradoxical to represent the area in my life in which I wish to rise and shine. I then did the rest of the spread with the Numinous Tarot and Threadbound Oracle as usual. These upcoming weeks I will work on each one of these cards, which means to integrate them through embodied reflection. If you want to do the Rise’n’Shine tarot reading for yourself, you can find the printable pdf-sheet here 🙂
We made it to Spain and our stuff also made it to Spain, arriving with the moving company only twelve hours after us. Since our arrival, I have been focusing in on the last card in my Reclaim Tarot Spread, the Queen of Wands. If you want to see our new flat, receive some behind the scenes updates, and hear me recap on my tarot practice in more detail, make sure to subscribe to my newsletter. The Queen of Wands occupied the position of the overall guiding energy that would result from the reclamation process that I started after quitting my job in the middle of June. The life changes that I have worked for have created the space around me to finally embody the Queen of Wands fully. She is no longer an aspiration, dream, or idea; I am living her every day. Also, the queen in me, which has always been so earthy and black, now feels ethereal and pink in her expression. The transition from being a black raven to adding pink comes as such a surprise, but I see the change as an actual energy shift taking place. It is easy to get stuck in past assumptions of who we are when we imagine our place of ownership and action. I am happy to be surprised; and if pink is the guiding colour now, I will go for it!
Rainbow cakes taste good all months of the year, my son loves everything colourful, and I feel queer even though straight, proud mum, married, presumptively cis-gendered, maybe a bit on the non-binary side, but it is only so far I can get with myself, exploring all the labels to choose from. In the end I can only be myself and need to work those undissolved awkwardnesses and magical uniquenesses in the few inches of decompressed vacuum space that I have left. Time and time again I feel startled by my desire to belong and the moments when I cannot find a cohesive expression of myself. One day I can go grunge, all flannel, the greyer the better. The next day I get a new tidy sweater in one of the posh shops and an expensive perfume. I am a shapeshifter and it scares me but I find comfort in thinking that this is what energy work is like. Tuning into the spectrum of energies from big waves to tiny waves and back again, able to sense it all, to understand it all, to manipulate it all, and to be it all, like tuning (into) the rainbow.
Yesterday evening we arrived in a small town at the outskirts of Manchester and used the great weather of today to go visit the city centre. As a former tarot tuber, I have made appointments with fellow tubers every now and then but honestly I did not have the guts to ask Kelly-Ann out for a coffee. Yet I got the impression that entire Manchester resonated Maddoxy with its many whimsical shops and all sorts of trends and identities that seem to blend in with each other naturally. Funny enough the city looked like a big tarot deck and I ended up with a street art daily draw that I sorted as XX Judgement. On the one side it said, “what if I fall”, on the other one, “oh but my darling, what if you fly”. I am asking you today: What if you fly? Where would you go? What would you see? How would it feel? The Manchester tarot offers you a tiny moment to imagine yourself fully winged, in sweeping flight, playing with altitude and speed, to make you trust in your capacity, and to rise up to the mountain tops and above, NOW.
In the online witchcraft community we follow our own eclectic ways with an open heart and inclusive mind. While the intention is good, it reminds of the scene in the Monty Python movie ‘The Life of Brian’ where people in a crowd shout, “we are all individuals”, with only one voice protesting, “I am not”. Applied to my life this means, even though I want to think of myself walking my self-authored talk, I feel that my struggle for legitimacy is more real than I would like to admit. So while I am stirring my own magical stew, being part of the crowd in Ireland means to visit the Morrigan’s cave. I have heard other followers of the Morrigan say they had been bullied for not going, and I will not miss out on this opportunity to do it right while I get the chance. We made it to her cave which surprisingly was not titled the Morrigan’s cave at all. Translated from Gaelic, the cave is called the Cave of the Cats. It is the warrior queen Medb who is the central figure of the place with its mounds, waters, and the cave, while certainly the Morrigan is tightly woven to her and the cave as well. If I had planned our trip more properly, I could have participated in the two hours guided tour. But arriving in Rathcroghan spontaneously, I prioritised a quick visit to the cave together with my family, saying hello to a goddess of my imagination, happy to leave a tiny offering unnoticed by the archaeologists who do the tours. Even if I could have done better from a cultural appreciation point of view, I am glad I visited Oweynagat softly opening and closing the cattle gate all by myself this time. My next visit will be better prepared and if you want to go and visit the cave, check out this website